Working hard on a new online class, I wasn’t planning to start my summer holiday before tomorrow. But as it turned out, I was needed here. Our Cardigan Welsh Corgi Silke, who was very ill, suddenly deteriorated to the point where we knew the inevitable was coming. I laid down my work and spent the last days of her life close to her.

The days were full of sad and beautiful moments at the same time. But all in all, her passing left a huge emptiness and lots of involuntary leakage…

I don’t know if there can ever be a good moment to die. But in Silke’s case, we were confronted with the summum of mixed emotions. Because my holiday would start tomorrow with the arrival of our new puppy, Tibbe.

Those of you who have or have had dogs can imagine how ‘wrong’ it feels to welcome a new puppy so soon after your dog’s passed away. We certainly didn’t plan it this way. In our mind, Silke was going to be a big sis teaching this little rascal a thing or two about life in his new home. But unfortunately she won’t be there to help him and instead leaves a huge emptiness behind that he can never fill. And we don’t expect him to. He will be his own “person”, just like she was hers. But she’s awfully fresh in our memory…and for some reason it felt ‘wrong’…

But then the heavens decided to send us a message…

When we left for a party last Sunday, suddenly in the clouds, Silke was there…

If you look closely, you can see – upside-down – a corgi lying on the floor, head on between her paws. That is how she used to sleep. The cloud stayed with us the whole half hour’s drive and wasn’t blown apart like they often are. Big sobs behind the windscreen and lots of tissues. It was the morning after her passing…a bit soon for a party yet…

We spent part of the day walking in a field where we’d last been with Silke, finding the memory of her in the wind, the flowers, the cows, the grass…so much space for grief and happy memories.

But what about the puppy?

Doubts raised in my mind…was it fair to the puppy to have him come? Was it fair to Silke? Wouldn’t we forget her?

And then, on our way back, the clouds gave us this (see image above, on top on the right)…a Schnauzer’s head!!!

So on the way to the party we got Silke, sleeping…and on the way back home we got a Schnauzer…we got Tibbe…

I wouldn’t dream of assigning such ‘coincidences’ to anything. We could say that this was a case of ‘more between heaven and earth’. Or just our minds so preoccupied with our dogs that we saw them in EVERYthing.  Whatever it was, these clouds helped us grieve and level out again. I won’t say there were no more tears after Tibbe’s appearance in the clouds, but they did begin to taste sweeter…

Silke will be dearly missed. She really was a fabulous dog. But we are ready to welcome Tibbe and offer him a very warm place in our family.

In the weeks to come I will probably flood my Instagram and Facebook account with photos of Tibbe and his first adventures in our family. And I intend to take the time to enjoy those and to assist him on his first steps into the big world.

I’ll be back to work in the beginning of September…and hopefully launch a new really awesome course in that same month…